Vacancy

You catch a glimpse of omniscience,
Hidden in the depth of the sky,
Surrounded by the stars.

Each star looms
A burning combination of passion and desire,
A memory,
A point of brilliance,
But then it fades.

To be forgotten,
Lost in translation,
A simple meaning to a complex problem.

You always know the light will dim, the star will fade.
You feel its warmth,
You bathe in its light,
And when it leaves, you forget.
Left only with a memory of brief ignition,
Bitter resignation,
Suppression.
Repression.

It leaves a hole.
Subtle and forgotten.

Years pass,
It remains,
Now only a shadow,
Leaving you a wraith.
You question the numbness,
You never grasp why.

Then a new light shines,
Illuminating what you left in the shadows.

You can't react.
You don't know how.
As you face the reason for your vacancy.

L. Soleil